Tuesday 12 March 2013

Still here... and reminiscing...

So on Mother's Day, last Sunday, I reached 20 weeks pregnant exactly. What a day! Remembering Isla and missing her so much on what should have been our first Mother's Day together but feeling such a strong bond with my ever-growing bump.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 We know our precious bundle is a little girl now, which is lovely. Hasn't even crossed my mind that she's a replacement for Isla, though I know some women feel that pressure.
 
This pregnancy has not been easy at all. I've had lots of trips to the hospital but seem to be getting looked after pretty well. I managed to fall over the other night which scared me a bit, but again, she seems fine!
 
Today I've been reminiscing. On my July birth board, a forum for others due in July, they have been sharing pictures of their previous bumps. I'm not really prepared to do that, but it's interesting to see. I can only find a couple which I thought I'd share here instead.
 
This is my Isla bump at 18+5
Compared to Rainbow bump at 18 weeks
 
And this is Isla bump at 20+4
Compared to Rainbow bump at 20 weeks
 
 
 
More interesting is, when I looked through the birth group I was in with Isla, I found a post I wrote the day before we found out Isla had died. So telling of what was going wrong but it makes me so sad to see the title I gave the post... You'll have to click on it to read it properly...
 
Later that day, after my appointment, I wrote the following:
I find it so sad to read those posts, just the day before we found out we'd lost our darling girl. Scary too, that I am only 6 weeks away from that exact time.